Wednesday, February 8, 2012

It's official:

I'm planning my book. Like, actually sitting down with pen and paper - or laptop, actually, in my case - and jotting down ideas and characteristics. It's oddly scary. And oddly exhilarating. But mostly scary.


The odds of me continuing this "planning stage" and actually writing said book are fairly slim, since I'm chicken-shit, but I've decided that I should at least try.

I mean, what's the worst that could happen?

Sunday, January 29, 2012

I tried to think those feelings away.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Best Intentions

She means well. It was never her intention to hurt the girl in front of her; she only wanted her to be happy. As happy as she feels when she looks at her husband; the happiness bubbling in her chest the moment she rises in the morning, continuing through to night when she lays down next to him in their bed.


She just wants her to have what she has. She's tried setting her up numerous times, but she's too picky. Takes one look at the boys, men, guys in front of her, panic registering in her green eyes before she excuses herself.

She idly wonders if she might be gay. It would come as a surprise to her; her oldest, dearest, singlest friend has had her share of beaus. But she's been single for the past three years and does she not crave the feel of a man's body?!?!

So she'll keep pointing men out. Keep encouraging her to go home with them at the end of the night. Keep bragging about how wonderful her life with her husband is.

She just wants her to be as happy as she is.

She means well.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Here's what he knows about her.

She eats an apple everyday. Often leaves the cores abandoned on the kitchen counter -- little reminders that there's a new body in the house.

She never leaves dirty dishes in the sink; makes them all feel really guilty for not cleaning up after themselves. He'll playfully hold his dirty dishes high above her head, but she always insists she loves doing the dishes. Who's he to argue with someone who'll willingly clean up after him? Yeah. No.

She takes really long showers every morning. She sings as she cooks. She's obsessed with making lists and leaves them laying around their apartment. She's intelligent and observant. Thoughtful, even.

He has a hard time ignoring her most of the time, but on days she wears a dress or short pants, he can't tear his disobedient eyes away from her legs.

She has really toned calves.

He can't stop staring at her calves and he knows she's noticed. There are times he'll look up to find a bemused expression on her face and others when it's amazing she hasn't spontaneously combusted from her flaming cheeks.

But the most important thing he's learned about her is that she doesn't know her own mind. She'll be smiling and friendly and flirtatious one minute, but the next, she'll transform into this overemotional, angry and easily irritated chick. He doesn't get how there's a switch somewhere inside her that makes her go from sane to loopy.

She's an enigma of sorts. Keeps him guessing at every turn.

He convinces himself that's why he can't stop thinking about her. He's a bad liar.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

I don't want to be ready.

Not yet, at least.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

He's always whistling.


The happy boy with the dimpled smile and tousled sandy hair. She knows - without a doubt - that he's in a bad mood if she doesn't hear him whistling first thing every morning. It's like a mood thermometer; helping her gauge how he feels.

She's often surprised - delighted, really - when she wakes up to hear him whistling in the kitchen. Hear his whistle coming from the bathroom, sounding over the rush of water. Hear his whistle from his room as he dresses. It comes as a surprise, even if he whistles all the time. And every time she hears his whistle, her heart pinches and the flutter in her stomach bubbles up into a laugh. It's just so surprising, the way he makes her feel.

He just makes her happy.

He's just so infectious.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

One of the best things about being happy is that the reaction you have to songs that used to make you bawl is now peace.

The only exception to this rule is Coconut Records' "West Coast".


Guess I'm over a lot of things then, eh?