Random Channel Surfing

Chantal married Ryan last night and it was a beautiful ceremony. They're so smitten with one another. Funny, but the first time she was engaged, I knew I wasn't going to be invited. Tarek never liked me (I am very aware of that) and she and I had grown so apart, that I kind of figured I wouldn't be there on her big day. Fast-forward to last night where I witnessed just how much she loves Ryan and how much he loves her. They're so adorable and they're so in love and it warms my heart. I fucked up, though. I won't document the reasons for said fuck-up or what it is I fucked up, but I will say that the shame I feel right now will likely persist for a long while and, well, that sooks. I'm updating this to include the only selfie Nix and I took. Look at me! I'm a highlighter!

Chantal's engaged. I wonder if I'll get invited to the wedding. I was reading my old journal entries today and ... I miss her. She was a great friend. A bit disloyal and a tad too wrapped-up in popularity, but she was good to me. Especially when it mattered. I hope she and Tarek have a wonderful life together.