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Not entirely out of order, but not entirely in order either. Remind myself how problematic he is (counting calories, misaligning political ideologies, racist comments, etc) Delete his phone number from my phone. Avoid places and events I know he's attending. Repeat the words, "God, I hate him" whenever I think about him. Convince myself I'll never see him again. Imagine that his breath is nas ty = crush almost over. Make a secret playlist of songs that remind me of him. Write a list of why he sucks. Rationalize why we wouldn't work out. Get sad when Nicole challenges this belief. Imagine him with another woman who -- in my mind -- is a better fit for him than I would be. Help him romance said woman. Get sad when Nicole challenges this belief (yes, this happens twice for two different reasons).  Force myself to like someone new whilst I simultaneously... Avoid the opposite sex like it's my part-time job. Take a trip or two or five. Drown m...

Sure. It's superficial. I admit it's pretty judgey. But when a dude knows how and when to use "too" versus "to" or "two"; when he knows how and when to use "their", instead of "there" and "they're"; when he knows when to use "your" instead of "you're"; when he knows how to use the serial comma; and when he knows the right way to break the rules, it all just makes my attraction to him even stronger. Because people who know how to write, are hella sexy.

The main negative part about having a potential romantic dream-lover person follow you on any social media platform is that you're constantly second-guessing yourself about what you can and should post, as well as what you can't and shouldn't post. It's a constant tug-of-war between your brilliant ideas and the self-conscious nail-biter at your elbow, reminding you that "so-and-so could read into your tweet that you want his bod bad" or that "dude could mistake that flirtatious pic you just posted as a total come-on, c'mon!" So I hardly ever tweet. Hardly ever post a pic or link. It's better this way.  Passivity is underrated, I think. Right?