Random Channel Surfing

My 30th birthday is this Friday and I've decided I'm going to try to read/watch as many of these as I can before that day. When I read-slash-watch something off these lists, I will cross the item off and write the date in smaller letters beside it. Ah, to set such mediocre goals in order to feel more fulfilled when you reach a milestone birthday. #Pathetic Books/Articles The Beautiful Struggle by Ta-Nehisi Coates Bad Feminist by Roxanne Gay The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry Olivia Wilde Tells Us Her Dos and Don'ts of Turning 30   February 29 4 Dating Realizations I've Had at Age 29   February 29 What Science Says About Being in Your 30s   February 29 "When You Turn 30, It No Longer Sounds Insane That You Might Be a Mom"   February 29 30 Songs That Will Instantly Put You in a Good Mood   March 1 Attention 30-somethings: THIS Is the Perfect Show for You   March 1 Mujerista   March 2 Episodes Sex and the City: Sex and the C...

Throwback to August (top pic) and last weekend (bottom pic) with my three little birds.  Now that I'm entering the last week in my twenties, I'm especially thankful for these three women and everything that they have contributed to my life. I love them and I feel especially blessed to be a part of their lives and all their major milestones.  It's ironic to me that 2008 was the year that brought the most changes to their lives. The year I was falling in love with a city, Nicole and Janis were falling in love with their guys and Jenn was graduating from nursing school. The year I was so ready to leave Edmonton, my friends were expanding their roots to the city's soil. But our trip to Montreal in 2014 proved something to me: that while I adore Montreal and will end up there one day, these three women are integral parts of my life. Their love, support, and friendship is vital. They are a constant reminder that despite my fears and unease, "every little th...

My attraction to yet another male has blossomed into a full-blown crush. And, as it is always wont to happen: He fell out of like with me and is now avoiding me at all costs. So what did I--a soon-to-be thirty-year-old--do? Well, I got very lovesick and consequently confused my nausea and panic with a stomach bug.  Let that sink in.  Seriously. I'm so frustrated and so goddamn sad . I built four different castles in the sky with this guy and now all I feel is empty. Empty and restless. Again.  I've already performed most of my ritual for getting over someone ; although the playlist I created was more of a "I have such a huge crush on a guy who is both cute and tall and makes me wanna jump his bones" than a "We could have had it all, motherfucker, but you decided I was lame and boring" playlist. I'm ahead of schedule with this guy, though. I skipped over denial (the step where I deny the fact I am developing feelings for a person--this...

February 20, 2016 was a day of so much smiling my cheeks hurt. Of so many happy tears that I kept having to check my makeup. Of an overall awesome feeling of joy that was as infectious as it was instantaneous. My best friend married her best friend and to look at their beautiful shining faces, beaming with love and radiating elation, I couldn't help but believe that my own person is out there. Because a love shared between two people like Nicole and Rylan--two people who understand and complement one another to their very core--can't be as rare as I've made it out to be in my head. No; seeing them on their wedding day made me oh so hopeful that that kind of love is everywhere. You just have to know how to recognize it; you have to know how to tend to that love; you have to be willing to make small (and sometimes big) sacrifices; you have to be willing to commit to one person over and over and over again; you have to be willing to accept them, flaws and all; and you h...

Lines of note: Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed  So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

I'm learning to let things go. Or maybe it's not so much that I'm learning to let things go, but that my perspective or focus has shifted; that I'm learning to temper my expectations, my impatience, my fire. Because I used to be of the mind of going 0 to 100, but I'm learning to gradually increase from 0 to 3, to 6, etc. It's taken me a while and, while I cannot say that I have full control, I know that things are getting better and, maybe, by this time next year, I'll have finally learned how to #adult.

Third attempt to start the week off on the right foot. So far, January has been cold, busy, and loved up! I've had the pleasure of seeing my girls at least once per week and I've watched three different movies in theatres (which you know is my favourite!). Things are going wonderfully and I feel as though they're only going to get better. I've also decided that I'm not going to do things I don't have to do. I'm going to be more selfish and more reckless and I'm going to enjoy every second of this magical new year! Thirty is coming up fast and I'm not going to rest on my laurels. I'm going to pursue my writing career; I'm going to write a screenplay; I'm going to pitch to a magazine; I'm going to make a buttload of money; I'm going to spend said money on things I want ; I'm going to meet new people; I'm going to hit on the attractive men in my life and I'm not going to feel sad or angry if things don't pan out t...