Random Channel Surfing

I only have three weeks left at Lobster Press . It is beyond shitty. I wonder when I'll come back to Montreal. I really want to stay (and everyone I know here is telling me I should) but the more I think about it, the more I realize that I shouldn't be stubborn right now. Montreal won't disappear... the city will always be here. I only hope I won't need three days of mourning like I did this summer, haha!! Then again, there are PLENTY of things I am looking forward to this holiday season... For one, the ENTIRE family will be together for the duration of the holidays... including my nephew Patrick's birthday : ) Ain't he cuuuuute?? Anyway, if I want to stay in this beyond amazing city, I think it's time I do something about it... like, you know, look for a job. Proactivity leads to opportunity!! HUZZA! (I just made that up... !! Hahah!) I just want someone to tell me what to do... I'm lame.

Everyday I wake up and it's Sunday Whatever's in my head won't go away The radio is playing all the usual  And what's a "wonderwall" anyway? Because my inside is outside... My right side's on the left side 'Cause I'm writing to reach now, But I might never reach you. I want to teach you About you But that's not you. It's good to know that you are home for Christmas. It's good to know that you are doing well. It's good to know that you all know I'm hurting. It's good to know I'm feeling not so well. Because my inside is outside... My right side's on the left side. 'Cause I'm writing to reach you now, But I might never reach you. I only want to teach you About you, But that's not you. You know it's true, But that won't do. Maybe then tomorrow will be Monday. And whatever's in my head should go away. Still the radio keeps playing all the usual. What's a "wonderwall" anyway? Because ...

I made the mistake of taking my rose-coloured glasses off and I saw that the world isn't all "sunshine and lollipops" and that people are full of shit.  Wow. That is about the most  cynical thing I have ever said in my life, but it's true: a large portion of the human race is full of shit. Granted not 100% of people are full of poo, but I would say a lot of them are. What brings this enlightened view of the world? Disappointment.  And because of my disillusionment, I feel distant and apart from everyone I know and love--again. It's hard to be happy all the time and while I manage it almost effortlessly when I see the world as I want to see it, once those glasses are off and I see the harsh reality, I lose faith.  Amazing what one discovery does. Ah well, I had to do it. Better now than in six months.

I stayed in Edmonton for school, and as such, never needed to live anywhere else but home. Free food, free room, free cable, free internet, free dry-cleaning service {kidding!}--why live anywhere else? But ever since this summer, I have lived with awesome people. My five roommates have all been respectful, friendly, funny and willing to help. You might say I lucked out. For starters, the way I found my roommates is very lucky.... I found out that I was going to Montreal this summer, on March 5... the day after I turned 22. I was ecstatic after I received a call from Rosalind (our Albertan coordinator) and immediately called my Hector, my Flory, and my older sisters. All four of them said the same thing: "bueno, y ahora necesitas un lugar donde vivir..." which means, "good, and now you have to find a place to live." Oh boy. So I called five different places--four women, and one really friendly guy named Nicolas. He took my name, number and said he w...

We're all entitled to our opinion. We're expected to respect  differing opinions.  I know this is true. I'm [thankfully] a very tolerant person. I value differing opinions and am a big fan of tolerance. Having said this, I want to find my "political soulmate." Someone who sees the world like I do. Who values differences and tolerance and sees that there are a million solutions to one problem. Like my friend Krystina says: "You have two choices... I tell myself I only have two, but really you have more than that!" (oh, my friend! How I miss our Montreal outings!!!)  I hate realizing that my idealized view of something/someone is mistaken. I have the tendency to idealize the people I like... friends, family, acquaintances... I see them in a different light. But when I'm shaken from this state, and I realize that they aren't who I thought they were, I feel betrayed. Having said this, I'll end this post with: I'm done.

I really, really, really want to stay in Montreal. Forever. Or, well, at least until I'm ready to go to Guatemala and explore most of--if not all--South America. But at the moment, all I care about is being in Montreal until at least 2010.  My roommates want to know if I'll be back in January. Frig, I want to come back in January, but who knows? Will I be here? I was planning on staying here, but I need to make another "list." Lists are awesome. The first human who made lists is a genius. Lists can solve any problem. Anyway, I'm starting to miss my hometown , too. le sigh

Barack Obama for President!  Barack Obama for everyone!! Dude has united the entire world! Shamans in Peru united to pray for his victory.  His Kenyan family are slated to slaughter a bull (not so cool, but we've all got our customs!), to celebrate his victory!! The world wanted Barack Obama... a man who will actually speak with other world leaders to find solutions that will benefit us all--who will see solutions instead of conflict.  He's got the whole world in his hands. Over 12'000'000 University students (and people in the 18-34 age demographic) voted. This truly is a momentous occasion...!! I am speechless. We are united. All of us. Americans. Canadians. Europeans. Asians. Africans. We are all united by this one man.  He will do great things. And we are all so lucky to be a part of it.  Like someone "confessed" in PostSecret: "I feel like we're at a really amazing part in history & it's amazing to be a part of it." P.S. Nice speec...

As cheesy as it sounds, we are witnessing history in the making.  I hope every American realizes how privileged they are to be creating change! [meaning: I hope all of those who COULD vote, DID!!} Why is it that I say we are witnessing history in the making?? Easy: the internet is playing a huge role in campaigning, text messages are being used in strategic ways to urge voters to stay in line... The chance that our American neighbours might elect the first black president, or first woman vp, or the oldest president (HA!)...  ... history in the making. P.S. Please ignore my grammatical errors... I'm typing this as I'm watching CNN.com. Oh, and please enjoy this vid... Obama is the embodiment of Inspiration.

I'm hoping that my brother-in-law, a proud Republican, will change his mind and vote Democratic for the first time in his life... Miracles happen, right? I can't put up with four more years (if not more!!! ) of Republican policies. American politics affect Canada more than we like to admit and it's horrible not being able to trust your neighbours to the South.

I was thinking the other day, "If my life was a movie, what would my soundtrack be?" I filled this out once before, but seeing as I'm in a new chapter of my life, I think it's time to do it over... This is how you do it: 1) Open your music library (iTunes, Media Player, etc) 2) Put your library on "Shuffle" 3) Press play! 4) For every question, type the title of the song that plays 5) For the next question, hit the "Next" button 6) DON'T LIE! ***************************************************** Opening credits: Swing, Swing (The All-American Rejects) First day of school: Take the Long Road and Walk It (The Music) Falling In Love: Bright Eyes (Jason Mraz) Fight Song: Last Standing Soldier (Kardinal Offishall feat. Bedouin Soundclash) Breaking Up: Battleships (Travis) Prom: Samba de mon coeur (Coralie Clément) Life: Bond (The Untouchables) Mental breakdown: I Would Die 4 U (Prince) Driving: Maybe Memories (The Used) Flashback: Dark Come So...