disappointment

I made the mistake of taking my rose-coloured glasses off and I saw that the world isn't all "sunshine and lollipops" and that people are full of shit. 

Wow. That is about the most cynical thing I have ever said in my life, but it's true: a large portion of the human race is full of shit. Granted not 100% of people are full of poo, but I would say a lot of them are.

What brings this enlightened view of the world? Disappointment. 

And because of my disillusionment, I feel distant and apart from everyone I know and love--again. It's hard to be happy all the time and while I manage it almost effortlessly when I see the world as I want to see it, once those glasses are off and I see the harsh reality, I lose faith. 

Amazing what one discovery does. Ah well, I had to do it. Better now than in six months.

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