Blogs with Ads
I hate going onto someone's blog and seeing it covered in ads.
Meet local singles!
Lose weight fast!
Pretty dresses for CHEAP!
And I don't hate the ads because they're flashy and tacky. No. It's because I know these ads are custom-tailored for me and my preferences and are, therefore, a reminder of things I already know and don't need reminding of. They're smug ads. They're abrasive and the one I saw today was so eerily in-tune with my life and recent conversations I've had these past FIVE days that I'm starting to think an internet sprite is hovering somewhere close to me and is whispering my secrets into the ears of some internet demon and they're set on ruining my life.
Yes. I am dramatic.
But this odd coincidence crawls under my skin, wriggling and embedding itself in my brain, making me question everything. I mean, is this blog ad a sign? I gave up believing in signs when I lived in Montreal and learned to distinguish between what I thought and thought I saw versus what I wanted to believe and what actually happened. I mean, the way I see it, believing in signs and destiny is futile. We are the masters of our own destiny and that's why self-awareness is so imperative. Because in order to live our lives to our fullest potential, we have to understand ourselves, inside and out.
Anyway, the point I'm trying to make here is that seeing this ad today really... well, it startled me. And it got me thinking. And I don't want to think about the what-ifs when so much of my life now is focusing on the present. I'm tired of analyzing. But this ad got me believing and analyzing and now I'm angry with myself. Again. Because I might not be as cynical as I'd thought I was.
Meet local singles!
Lose weight fast!
Pretty dresses for CHEAP!
And I don't hate the ads because they're flashy and tacky. No. It's because I know these ads are custom-tailored for me and my preferences and are, therefore, a reminder of things I already know and don't need reminding of. They're smug ads. They're abrasive and the one I saw today was so eerily in-tune with my life and recent conversations I've had these past FIVE days that I'm starting to think an internet sprite is hovering somewhere close to me and is whispering my secrets into the ears of some internet demon and they're set on ruining my life.
Yes. I am dramatic.
But this odd coincidence crawls under my skin, wriggling and embedding itself in my brain, making me question everything. I mean, is this blog ad a sign? I gave up believing in signs when I lived in Montreal and learned to distinguish between what I thought and thought I saw versus what I wanted to believe and what actually happened. I mean, the way I see it, believing in signs and destiny is futile. We are the masters of our own destiny and that's why self-awareness is so imperative. Because in order to live our lives to our fullest potential, we have to understand ourselves, inside and out.
Anyway, the point I'm trying to make here is that seeing this ad today really... well, it startled me. And it got me thinking. And I don't want to think about the what-ifs when so much of my life now is focusing on the present. I'm tired of analyzing. But this ad got me believing and analyzing and now I'm angry with myself. Again. Because I might not be as cynical as I'd thought I was.
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