Growth...?
Question: Do you know what's especially annoying??
Answer: Not really knowing yourself.
I am a random person by nature. I like to think of myself as a dichotomy--Most of the time I contradict myself because of this duality. At times I feel as if this is attributable to the fact that I am a Latin American woman from Guatemala who has been blessed to grow up in Canada... possibly one of the most culturally different countries from Guatemala. I am a Latina, but how I think is very Canadian.
At the moment, I am realizing that this teetering back and forth is due to the fact that I have no clue who I am. I often wonder, am I Latina or Canadian? Do I think that this is the right way, or is it the other way?
The great news is that I haven't been teetering back and forth as much this summer. I don't know if it's because I'm too busy enjoying myself or because I've actually GROWN this summer. I actually know that I am ten times more mature than when I left for Montreal.
Evidence:
Answer: Not really knowing yourself.
I am a random person by nature. I like to think of myself as a dichotomy--Most of the time I contradict myself because of this duality. At times I feel as if this is attributable to the fact that I am a Latin American woman from Guatemala who has been blessed to grow up in Canada... possibly one of the most culturally different countries from Guatemala. I am a Latina, but how I think is very Canadian.
At the moment, I am realizing that this teetering back and forth is due to the fact that I have no clue who I am. I often wonder, am I Latina or Canadian? Do I think that this is the right way, or is it the other way?
The great news is that I haven't been teetering back and forth as much this summer. I don't know if it's because I'm too busy enjoying myself or because I've actually GROWN this summer. I actually know that I am ten times more mature than when I left for Montreal.
Evidence:
I can stand up for myself
I know what I want and I am not afraid to go for it.
I have learned the art of saying "No."
I can make up my mind.
So now that I have matured (haha!), will I continue to be random and change channels mid-convo? Yes. That's just the way I am.
Will I still think one way but change my mind soon afterwards? No. I think I will still see the other side of the story, understand this perspective, but I think I will finally be able to make up my mind... Finally.
At least I hope this is what happens :)
So now that I have matured (haha!), will I continue to be random and change channels mid-convo? Yes. That's just the way I am.
Will I still think one way but change my mind soon afterwards? No. I think I will still see the other side of the story, understand this perspective, but I think I will finally be able to make up my mind... Finally.
At least I hope this is what happens :)
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