Marcela's Mix - It's Raining! It's Pouring! Her heart is sooooaring!
These last few weeks have been cloudy, windy, and oftentimes rainy. Ideal weather for a heat-hater like me.
So I've taken to listening to my "Rainy Weather" playlist on my iPod (aptly named Marcela's Mix - It's Raining! It's Pouring! Her heart is sooooaring!) on constant loop. It has rainy day classics such as "Singin' In the Rain", "I'm Only Happy When It Rains", "Águas de Março", and some less-rain-heavy songs like Coconut Records' "West Coast" and Radiohead's "House of Cards"; songs that personally remind me of the gloomy weather for reasons. (For instance, I saw Radiohead live when I was in Montreal at Parc Jean Drapeau. It was an exterior venue and there was a torrential downpour all concert long; ideal setting for a rain-raver like me.)
And the more I listen to this particular mix, the more I realize that I associate the rain and clouds and wind with Montreal. The more I realize that my heart really truly does yearn for that amazing city. And it's a conflicting emotion right now because, yes, I do want to move to Montreal, but a larger (more realistic and pragmatic) part of me realizes that moving to Montreal is definitely not feasible in the foreseeable future. I know, without a cloud of doubt, that Montreal is a long-term goal for me; that fulfilling that dream won't happen within the next five, maybe even ten, years.
And yeah, it is disheartening and kind of frustrating to me that the one thing I've wanted in a really long time (more than fulfilling the dream of owning my own magazine, more than having a successful career in writing, more than meeting an amazing guy, more than traveling, more than seeing every show that comes through town) might not happen for a while longer. It sucks. But the reality is I have other ducks to get in order before I make my permanent move to Montreal.
And it all makes sense to me in a concrete way, but I still feel so many abstract emotions over this disappointment and that places me in a very conflicting state of mind.
Being in love with an actual place is so much more unsettling than falling in love with a human being.
Track Listing for Marcela's Mix - It's Raining! It's Pouring! Her heart is sooooaring
So I've taken to listening to my "Rainy Weather" playlist on my iPod (aptly named Marcela's Mix - It's Raining! It's Pouring! Her heart is sooooaring!) on constant loop. It has rainy day classics such as "Singin' In the Rain", "I'm Only Happy When It Rains", "Águas de Março", and some less-rain-heavy songs like Coconut Records' "West Coast" and Radiohead's "House of Cards"; songs that personally remind me of the gloomy weather for reasons. (For instance, I saw Radiohead live when I was in Montreal at Parc Jean Drapeau. It was an exterior venue and there was a torrential downpour all concert long; ideal setting for a rain-raver like me.)
And the more I listen to this particular mix, the more I realize that I associate the rain and clouds and wind with Montreal. The more I realize that my heart really truly does yearn for that amazing city. And it's a conflicting emotion right now because, yes, I do want to move to Montreal, but a larger (more realistic and pragmatic) part of me realizes that moving to Montreal is definitely not feasible in the foreseeable future. I know, without a cloud of doubt, that Montreal is a long-term goal for me; that fulfilling that dream won't happen within the next five, maybe even ten, years.
And yeah, it is disheartening and kind of frustrating to me that the one thing I've wanted in a really long time (more than fulfilling the dream of owning my own magazine, more than having a successful career in writing, more than meeting an amazing guy, more than traveling, more than seeing every show that comes through town) might not happen for a while longer. It sucks. But the reality is I have other ducks to get in order before I make my permanent move to Montreal.
And it all makes sense to me in a concrete way, but I still feel so many abstract emotions over this disappointment and that places me in a very conflicting state of mind.
Being in love with an actual place is so much more unsettling than falling in love with a human being.
Track Listing for Marcela's Mix - It's Raining! It's Pouring! Her heart is sooooaring
- Only Happy When It Rains
- Three Little Birds
- House of Cards
- Nitemare Hippy Girl
- Have You Ever Seen the Rain
- Umbrella
- Night Drive
- West Coast
- She Talks to Rainbows
- The Way You Make Me Feel
- Sprawl of Glass - Arcade Fire vs Blondie remix
- Float On
- After the Storm
- Soul Meets Body
- Your Rocky Spine
- Empty
- To Whom It May Concern
- Águas de Março
- Singin' In the Rain
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