Random Channel Surfing

 (A list for those times when I'm feeling weak in front of the person who wronged me. Why, yes. I am still angry and hurt. What gave that away?) -Bubbles -Grammar rules -Spelling rules -Whether or not Dumbledore deserves all the hero worship (Spoiler alert: He doesn't.) -Multiplication table -Disney movie synopses -Plan out your outgoing message for your voicemail -Kesha -Rihanna -Possible new hairstyles -Food -Past concerts -Future concerts -Past trips -Future trips -Favourite words -Exit strategy Don't ever , ever , ever ,  ever  think about them. Don't acknowledge their existence. Don't remember the happy times. Don't reminisce about how cute they are. Just... don't. Because when you do any of these things, you're sure to cry and that's never a good outcome.

And I'm still not all that "wise." So what have I learned this past year in respect to the past, present, future, death, growth, my dreams and life in general? I've learned that I am even MORE romantic than I'd originally thought; that I dream big, but have my feet firmly on the ground; and that I spend more time reveling in the future and analyzing the past to really enjoy the present. My to-do list for the next year is to focus on the here and now. Enjoy being stuck in Deadmonton and keep my sights on Montreal. Sure, it won't be a while until I can move East, but I know I'll get there. As Paulo Coelho says in The Alchemist , "When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it." It's only a matter of being patient.

I was thinking the other day, "If my life was a movie, what would my soundtrack be?" I filled this out once before, but seeing as I'm in a new chapter of my life, I think it's time to do it over... This is how you do it: 1) Open your music library (iTunes, Media Player, etc) 2) Put your library on "Shuffle" 3) Press play! 4) For every question, type the title of the song that plays 5) For the next question, hit the "Next" button 6) DON'T LIE! ***************************************************** Opening credits: Swing, Swing (The All-American Rejects) First day of school: Take the Long Road and Walk It (The Music) Falling In Love: Bright Eyes (Jason Mraz) Fight Song: Last Standing Soldier (Kardinal Offishall feat. Bedouin Soundclash) Breaking Up: Battleships (Travis) Prom: Samba de mon coeur (Coralie Clément) Life: Bond (The Untouchables) Mental breakdown: I Would Die 4 U (Prince) Driving: Maybe Memories (The Used) Flashback: Dark Come So...

If there was a game about wasting time, I would be the High Scorer, bar none. At the moment, I am a tad overwhelmed. One might say that I brought this upon myself and ordinarily, I would take offense to this statement. This time, however, I heartily agree. Fuck. There is so much shit that I have to do before I go back to Edmonton and, heh! I leave for E-Ville in three weeks. THREE weeks. FuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuUck. Nothing a well thought out list can't fix. Thing is, I have to remember to include chill time in my list, because if I don't schedule some relaxation time, I will forget to take breaks. Oh my. It is going to be a very long week.

I met with my creative writing prof, Scot Morison. He's amazing. One of those individuals that you are lucky to have in your life. He was mentored by Rudy Wiebe (RUDY WIEBE!!), is a documentary screenwriter and is quite possibly one of the best teachers I have ever had. He told me that my mechanics were solid (SOLID!) and that my best writing attribute was my vivid imagination. Overall, I left our meeting feeling like I CAN and WILL be published. Either in the near-future or sometime in the.... far-future...? hahaha! I can't believe I'm finished my degree. Wow. Only took me four bloody years! I'm so nervous/excited about my PUBLIC RELATIONS INTERNSHIP!! WTF?!?!!!!?!?! Yewp. I'm doing PR. In Montreal... For three months... I have to wear corporate attire... I am old. I will age five years this summer. I'm so stoked! I am going to submit two of my stories to Canadian literary rags this summer. It's decided. If I don't try, I'll never know...

This list is a compilation of the things I want to accomplish before my (and maybe Nicole's) big move to Guatemala. Decide what Graduate school I want to attend... (Queens, UWO, U of T...?) Get three (if lucky!) articles or short stories published...!! (I only have two articles published, so I need to pad my portfolio). Start working on my novel (idea down... x  number of words to go....) Get my citizenship card back... *grumble* Get my degree! (huzza!!) Live on my own. Get more work experience (not just as a theatre slave....) Get a part-time job working with VUE or SEE Weekly. Talk to my Aunt's CNN correspondent friend... Maybe he'll hire me (!) hahaha! Plan out my/our travel map (Mexico, El Salvador, Honduras, Belize, Costa Rica, Guatemala are definite destinations but... where else??) It's going to be great living in Guatemala again. Nicole has been saying that she wants to go with me, but only time will tell how serious she is about this. I mean, let's be pe...