Random Channel Surfing

I want to cheat. I want to know what lies ahead for me. I'm tired of all this hard work and guessing. I hate feeling like this. I just want to stay in Montréal... is that too much to ask?

I've spent the better half of today looking for a job. Sure, I've worked on my much-neglected homework assignments, but truth is, I've mostly been looking for job postings in Montreal, Calgary, Edmonton, and Toronto (this is in order of preference, by the way). I am so uber-frustrated. I don't want to leave Montreal... again. Everything's better here. The public transportation, the concerts, the seasons... Montreal is wonderful. Anyway, I applied for a job in Calgary. CALGARY. Since when do I want to live in Calgary!?!? Since I found out that a magazine there is looking for an editorial intern. Oh, and they're going to pay the intern MONEY. Real MONEY. Wow. I'm over the moon with this prospect!  Another reason why this internship would be sweet-ass, is 'cause I wouldn't have to pay rent. Two of my aunts live in Cowtown and I know that they'd be more than happy to have their lil niece stay with them for a six-month period. Look at me! I'm acti

I just read a blog post from my friend Erin  and I know exactly how she feels in regards to the lethargy and blah-ness (and the pampering, too!). It's so strange knowing that I'm going to be leaving Montreal (AGAIN!) in 16 days. This thought alone makes me feel lethargic.  Anyway, Susanna, Daniele and I are the only interns at Lobster at the moment (Erin went back home and Eric is out galavanting in Europe!) so we've had time with our thoughts... Yeah, it's not going so well. This past Wednesday (December 3) is being touted as the publishing industry's "Black Wednesday" because of all the layoffs, pay-cuts and overall dream squashing that's happening in this once "indestructible" industry. Anyway, I've been feeling so shitty and confused. I need to feel motivated in order to start looking for a job... how lame is that?

I must learn not to jump to conclusions. I should admit that I'm really just an impatient person.